best_to_comply

04:19 pm: Snow Day
Snow day's Rock My World.

09:52 am: 6 months
TODAY IS THE 23...6 MONTHS....

06:37 pm: Except where you signed it "I love you always, and forever"
Happy Valentines Day!

I am sick!

This last weekend was Brilliant! Riverview is sweet and has the most amazing sermons in the Universe. Noel is doing this series on Proverbs... and He's doing Amazing* its insane!

I can't wait till Bob***The longest part of the week is going from Sunday at Boble Study (which I had to feakin' miss this week) all the way to Bob on Wednesdays.

12:06 pm: You've Got Someone Coming Round*
Hey... I am supposed to be in math, but me and Jes have a foreign sub and she doesnt speak much english, so being the manipulative little pricks that we are we got her to let us come to the library... sweet.

i havent written in this in a while, right now my house comp is not working because we are getting a new cable modem thingy installed... oh and i got a new phone 331-1337. Yep.

I love wearing pjs.... random, but true.

GO PATRIOTS! WHAT WHAT?!!? lol* to all of you eagles fans, better luck next year! lol

Church is sooo sweet. Noel is doing this starting a wicked series on Proverbs, there is going to be a new one every day for 31 days... and they will be posted here every time i write, so feel free to read them if you want to. or just send a blank emial to www.proverbs@eriv.net and you will get them sent to you everyday so you can read along... its going to be wicked.

Wisdom is often not one of them. And yet the Bible reminds is that "wisdom is sweet to your soul. If you find it, you will have a bright future, and your hopes will not be cut short." - Proverbs 24:14


Wow, there is so much going on lately, both Good and Bad, Life is so sily!

06:18 pm: sweet song, sweet day...
Called to see if your back
was still aligned and your sheets
were growing grass all on the corners of your bed

But you've got too much to wear on your sleeves
it has too much to do with me
and secretly I want to bury in the yard
the grey remains of a friendship scarred

You told us of your new life there
you got someone comin' around
gluing tinsel to your crown
he's got you talking pretty loud
you berate remember your ailing heart and your criminal eyes
you say you're still in love
if it's true what can be done
it's hard to leave all these moments behind

Called to see if your back
was still aligned and your sheets
were growing grass all on the corners of your bed

But you've got too much to wear on your sleeves
it has too much to do with me
and secretly I want to bury in the yard
the grey remains of a friendship scarred

You tested your metal of doe's skin and petals
while kissing the lipless
who bleed all the sweetness...away...





Boble Study was sweet! it had alot to do with Steves sermon last night.. in robs words, "it was amazing" lol

12:38 am: My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me....*
Tonight was soo fun! much needed too, i thouroughly enjoyed myself.

First i had church... it was the second part of the "shadows" series, and it was really good, i am kinda sad that i missed last saturday though, i am told that it was sweet.

Then like everyone from church went over to Rob and Jordans house, and we played poker and made pancakes... and me and Rob and this kid that i dont actually know (his name might have been andy??? or something??) made a huge choc. chip pancake, it was ridiculous, and we put a coffee bean in it and shared it with the people who were still in the poker game... DJ ended up eating it, icky. lol. It was wicked fun though.

I was supposed to go to Kaleys to play with her and Eliya tonight, but i am pooped, so i just came home...
Speaking of being sleepy... i am going to bed, Night.

09:43 pm: TODAY HAS BEEN A WONDERFUL DAY! I dont know why... but it was MARVELOUS!

I love it when i feel like this....

09:49 pm: My Paper Heart Will Bleed...
I just got home from church a little bit ago, that is seriously the greatest place in the world, such cool kids there! like Kyle!* LOL. what a pimp! Anyways... Sean did really good tonight, it was all about how we should live, for the moment or for the future.. i liked that he talked about Phillipians. Nice Work.

So Rob just showed me a sweet clothes place online... and i think i smell some shopping ahead??

I wish it was the weekend already! Geesh! this has been a long week!

but i am talking to Hanah... she told me that she loves me! lol so i must go now and talk to her! haha.

Stacie

08:03 pm: Now we can swim any day in November*
I had to drive today, Drivers Ed is poopy. lol, but We got Ink to let us stop at Taco Bell! YUM! so that was basically the hightlight of my evening, i wish i was at the game right now, i stopped by for like 2 minutes but that was it.
So Funny story... I woke up at like 1230 last night, and i thought that it was morning alreaady, so i got up and took a freekin' shower! at 1230... when i got out and started to find some clothes, i looked at the clock which read 1238, and i was soaking wet, and had to try to fall back asleep... i think i must have been drugged! lol... what is up with that?!?!?!

I MISS STAVROULA AT LUNCH AND IN BIO!!! Oh Geez!

BOB tomorrow Night! YES*

09:38 pm: I just wish i could find all the right words to tell you....
Today was fun. i got my new class... graphic design, it just might be okay, Annalise is in it, so it just may be fun. lol.
I have been putting drivers ed off, for SO long now, and i finally am taking it. right now. lol. I had the first little class thing today, it actually wasnt that bad. Me and Angie and Paige are taking it together... and its at LC, we saw Rob, Jordan, Whitney and their little sis there earlier before that class, what a cute bunch! lol.
I wish tomorrow was wednesday... just for BOB. i love it.

08:42 pm: This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue....
So we slept till like 2 today, and then went and got Brooke... and went to Rob and Jordans hockey game... it was sad, they didnt win, it was 4 to 3... but they did good. And we were a'cheerin' for them! what cool kids*
then me and Brooke made friends with the people that worked in the Pro Shop there at the hockey rink. and we played football with them...
THEN! guess what happened?!? me and my mom got in ANOTHER huge fight, just like we did last night! YAY... not* and i broke my thumb when i hit the wall... woopsies...

But i am talking to people now... so bye lol

12:38 am: They Call me... Tater Salad...
Eliya is here, again! its love! and we watched they call me tater salad.. it's so silly!
So...LAST NIGHT, was extremely fun... we went to some kids house, and Val was there, and we beat the shit outta people at video games! whats up now boys?!?!... OH, and we played "6 degrees to kevin bacon"! with "The Indubadibly Inebriated Kid"... it was real fun... then we drove on icy roads and Chris and Josh almost hit a deer! OH NO! and they like spun out... very scary.
We just had a sleep over at chris' and watched ELF! yes! and this morning had to drive home in that snow storm...AND NOW! Eliya is staying the night again~ SWEET!
Speaking of the Snow!!!* i couldn't even go to church tonight because the roads were bad! that is sooo not cool. i was very upset.
Tomorrow we're going to watch the Capitals play hockey... fun? I know right?

BUT! I AM OUT*BYE BYE

OMG! JESI AND JOEY,VALENTINES DANCE... LOWELL?? WHAT?!!? lol

05:57 pm: Today I Fell... and Felt Better*
ELIYA IS HERE! lol i love that kid! she's a cool one. lol.
So after school we went over to Kaleys house and were there till like 4, then had to go get an oil change lol.. that was interesting haha. Oh, and now we are here, for dinner, then off again.

Yesterday i hung out with Eliya too. and Kaley too. lol. But whatever.

EXAMS ARE OVER WITH!!! yes! frickin' sweet! even though i like failed math...gay, but i think my dear Jessa Mea did as well, so its all good, cuz we will get to take it again together! haha

I am out to play, bye bye kids!

12:18 pm: Mr Saturday Night Special....
so i just wrote in this, and then messed up and deleted it... damn!

JESI IS COMING TO LIVE WITH ME! YESSSSSSSS! lol... this is beautiful! and I GET TO SEE HER OVER MID WINTER BREAK! YESSSSSSSS...again. lol.

I love half days, i am not totally sure what i am going to do today, but it will be brilliant, marvelous, in fact.

so last night i got in a HUGE fight with the rentals, and my brother, but i dont really care because i am talking to Jesi! yay! haha.

I AM SOO EATING PIZZA HUT.. FRICKIN' SWEET!


"I kissed you in a style Clark Gable would have admired, i thought it classic!"

11:19 pm: You, alone are good...
YAY* Finally a good day! tehe!
I did really good on exams, and Eliya picked me and Ashley up after school. It was wicked good times. we hung out all afternoon. Then me and Ash went to my moms work and took a nap on the couch in the basement. lol.
Then... I HAD BOB! yay* I love it! it makes me sooo happy. Ashley had to leave early, which was kinda poopy, but it was still really fun. Brooke and Mere played with a toy that Brooke got out of a cereal box, Rob spilled Pop. all and all, it was a darn good night!

Oh... grr... Brad is bothering me, what an annoyance.

06:54 pm: I just want to kiss your Lips... and you Kiss back...
Have you ever been at a point in your life, when EVERYTHING contradicts itself, and you are just lost? I hope you havent, because that is me right now, and i wouldnt wish this severe confusion on my worst enemy. It sucks! grr. And Family sucks too, I hate it here, i feel like i am insane when they are all around, i just wish that they were normal. lol.

so i like this guy alot... i dont know if i want a boyfriend though, but i kinda do... I am just a NERD and won't tell him* fear of rejection... anyone?? No? Okay...
Make a move on me baby
i cant be the one who's always taking chances
see me down so you get down
no you've got me all wrong
i just want to kiss your lips... and you kiss back.


so tonight Matt's Dads band is playing at the bar again, i can't wait to go to that. it will be sweeeet, and hopefully Mike will be there...i need to see somebody that actually cares about me*

YAY BOB IS TOMORROW NIGHT! THANK GOD, LITERALLY!...one place that i dont feel so meaningless and lonely, i dont know what i would do without God. then life would just flat Suck.

10:41 pm: I know its Hard to Feel....
Yo, whats up? yeah tonight was wicked sweet. Me and Rob,Sydney and Eliya went to a Lax Game...
For those of you who know who i like... i think i am just about to give the fuck up. lol... I hate actually liking people... insecurities, anyone?
So tomorrow i have so much homework... i am dreading it hardcore. Luckily exams are almost over with.
Stress, Stress, Stress, i dont like it. everything seems to be catching up with me lately. i am getting exhausted.
i wish that i was at church right now. i love being at church.. that is like the only place that i am really happy at. seriously, i hate being away from a plave that i actually like.
anyways...

But there are like alot of people in here, so i will update this later maybe...peace

10:53 am: You could Slit my throat....
Last night was so fun. i love the weekend. Well Friday was real fun too....

I went with Jacqueline to the mall after school... then we went to the show at the bowling alley... after i was going to go to a party thingy with Rob and some of his friends.... but i stayed till the end and this kid Steve gave Brooke Mere and I a ride back, but first we stopped and played in Meijer... we wanted to ride Sally lol but she was broken! TEAR.
Then last night me and Sydney went to Church, and gotta ride back to her house with Ryan, Frannie and Tyler...then went and hung out with Rob, Ryan, Joey,Jordan and a couple other kids, out*fucking*side.... it was sooo cold. but then Mandy rescued us.. and we came back to my house.

i think today after we get ready and have some chow we are going to go Bowling with Jordan and Rob and all of them. Exciting.

Bye Bye*

08:44 pm: pretending there is glamour and candelabra....
So one of my Friends just asked me the 10 things that scare me the most, and the 10 things i need the most...

most afraid of:
1* more friends dying
2* clowns
3* being alone
4* love
5* failure
6* the end of everything
7* losing family
8* not being accepted
9* not being able to fix myself
10* being scared...

need the most:
1* God**
2* Love**
3* my Friends (Jesi H more than anyone!)
4* Happiness
5* Family*as bad as they can suck
6* sports
7* Music**
8* to be content where i am
9* to accept myself for who i am
10* strength

03:33 pm: What is so Civil about War anyway?
Yeah, i havent written in this in a while, mostly because i have been really busy with school stuff...

So i have had alot on my mind lately, and i was so happy to go back to church last night, it made me feel so much better. I also went to Tylers grave for what seemed a really short time yesterday, but it was actually about an hour. It's days like this when i just wouldn't care if the world ended, i miss everyone so much, and the weather doesnt help. I dont get how i can be so happy and so sad all at the same time. but whatever, i guess i cant change that.

It is almost Friday! I am so happy that this week is almost over! and tomorrow night will be so much fun! first i am going to the show at the bowling alley, and then Rob told me about a party afterward, so hopefully i will go to that. Very Exciting!

Grr... Homework is so effin stressful!

"Look at the blood were spilling
look at the world were killing
the way weve always done before

...look at the leaders we follow,
look at the lives we swallow..."